Miss PSC

So...I'm running for Miss PSC for real. I really want to but I'm so nervous because I have only done one pageant before-Four years ago. I have to get with it...I just wish I had more time to get ready...I'll be great though. I have to do well.

Who I am

"I want someone to love me for who I am. I want someone to need me, is that so bad?"

I don't think so. I don't think there is such thing as being too young, old, ugly, pretty, whatever to be in love. Granted there probably is a time that is the best for each individual, but how in the world do you find out when that time is and with whom. You can spend so much time with one person building a friendship and a connection then one day it's just done...over, and all you can do is say okay-or look like a pathetic child begging the person to stay...You really have no choice in the matter but to figure out what you did to make it happen and try to make it better for next time if your heart ever heals enough to allow someone else to come in.

And it's like the worst thing in the world for someone to leave and say that you didn't do anything wrong. You would think that that would make it better but it doesn't. If nothing is wrong then there is nothing that I can fix. And it's a horrible feeling to know that you can do everything right for years and the other person can still just drop you like you were never significant to him or even to life in general.

It's funny because I was cool being single before...but more than falling for a person, I really have fallen for the idea of being with someone and it sucks to go back to being alone...

I Was Gonna Say That...

I was so excited Thursday to see so many students banding together to make a statement. It's so encouraging when you realize that if you have a valid concern and you approach it in the right way you can get things done. You really can. And I am excited that the prez truly believes in his message and when we finally took a stand and addressed the concerns, he decided to help us create a better, more functional SGA, structured so that we can promote change where necessary on campus-which is our job. It's great.

This is the shortened version of what I wanted to say since the dumb internet cut off.

I Got Something to Say

....but the internet connection sucks and it was all lost. I'm upset...I'll try again later.

First Step...

I am so sore. I have been working out for the past few days and I'm starting to believe that being sore is the punishment for not working out in-I don't even know how long...maybe summer. But hopefully I will get the results that I want, unlike this summer. Nothing is more depressing then working out four to five days a week for three months and not seeing any results. The fact that I'm not eating fast food should help.

This will my first step in becoming the person who I want to be. This post is was very random-i know.