Who I am

"I want someone to love me for who I am. I want someone to need me, is that so bad?"

I don't think so. I don't think there is such thing as being too young, old, ugly, pretty, whatever to be in love. Granted there probably is a time that is the best for each individual, but how in the world do you find out when that time is and with whom. You can spend so much time with one person building a friendship and a connection then one day it's just done...over, and all you can do is say okay-or look like a pathetic child begging the person to stay...You really have no choice in the matter but to figure out what you did to make it happen and try to make it better for next time if your heart ever heals enough to allow someone else to come in.

And it's like the worst thing in the world for someone to leave and say that you didn't do anything wrong. You would think that that would make it better but it doesn't. If nothing is wrong then there is nothing that I can fix. And it's a horrible feeling to know that you can do everything right for years and the other person can still just drop you like you were never significant to him or even to life in general.

It's funny because I was cool being single before...but more than falling for a person, I really have fallen for the idea of being with someone and it sucks to go back to being alone...