A week in the Bahamas, a 4 day cruise to Florida Key West and Mexico. God has definitely blessed me. I don't even know if I can describe at this moment how great it was. Maybe I will have to come back and fill in the details. But even my time home (SAT) has been great. In spite of the heat and the fact that I still don't have a car so I have to do the walk of shame back to school-AGAIN, I still got to see most of my very best friends of all time that I only get to see twice a year- some less. And I still know that although things come up they still have my back through everything. My friends that I met in either elementary school or middle school that no matter how much time separates us will still make time if an opportunity or need arises. I'm especially grateful that I got to reconnect with a friend from ms/hs that I have not spoken to in years and it has made this summer much more interesting, much more exciting, and made me reevaluate my life in regards to where I'm going, what my likes and dislikes really are, and what goals I really have for myself. Made me really think about how I am just floating through life without a destination and that I have kinda become complacent. Just waiting for the next opportunity that presents itself not actually taking a goal and striving for excellence and to succeed. So I have made some new goals that I will post at a later time of a few things I want to do just for me. Not what everyone else wants of me. I am going to miss my friends when I go to school tomorrow. Sometimes I feel bad cause I don't keep in touch like I should but my people don't even stress about it at all. And we are always there for each other even if it can't be in person.
Also this summer I have made stronger friendships with people from Philander..they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Well I think that works with friends as well. Maybe its a November baby thing. That makes me feel better about life as well especially I'm going into my first collegiate school year that I won't be involved with my ex. And since one girl has left our corner (lol) for law school. I feel happy that I have received so much support in life. I'm really thankful for my roommate as well. I don't talk to her much over the summer-(its her vacation from me lol) but we are always cool. I need a car though so I don't worry her to death. But the best of friends can put up with that kind of maddness and still want to hang out with ya later. I'm kinda rambling at this point. I just know that although I need to grow up a lot still. I also know that I need to enjoy this rare point in life when I have the freedom and the means to just have fun and find out who I am and what I like and express it to the world. And that is what I plan to do. And like I said I will upload my list later. I love both of my blogs...and although no one probably reads them but me. It has been a great release and seems like once I put stuff on here things just happen-and I love it.
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