Same Tune Different Song

Yeah so I still need a car, although I have food and everything, I need to get a job and I need to work out and lose this stupid spare tire that has been building ever since I started college. I am about to finish college and begin a year of reign and I want to look fly. I need to get on that. But I really need to start saving for grad school. I definitely like to put stuff off because even though I like traveling starting over kinda terrifies me. Especially starting over alone-again. But I need to have money for an apartment, money for tuition, money for food, and money for another if my dad gets his way and I get a piece of crap car. And everything in life depends on this overly complicated process of getting a car. Not to mention even if I find the perfect car for the perfect price it will still take me another two or three days just to get the loan money since my dad won't give it to me now. Who will hold a car for three days for me. I don't think dealerships do that...I'll have to pray and beg and maybe cry in order to get that to work...I wish they would just give me the money so I can get things done...If people would trust me with my own life that would be incredible. I don't know....