No Job, No Car....starting to feel like a bum

Okay so I have always enjoyed my time not having to have a job. I love it I will be honest. There is this intoxicating freedom with knowing that you don't have to be somewhere 30 hours out of your week. Not because I am lazy, moreso because I am involved with everything so I love my free time-especially while I'm still in school. However, I really want a car. And after waiting so many years to get one I just want to have the freedom of a car-which sadly means I lose freedom to get it. I don't think people understand how difficult it is to get a car when you don't have one. How can I go to car lots or get cars inspected if I have no way to get there; how can I get a job if I have no way to get to the interview and no way to get to and from work. I don't know how people build from scratch. Thankfully I do have scholarship/internship/grant money coming in at random times that I can use to get a car. However, since I had the money for the car and it didn't go through I'll admit I started spending more money on clothes and trips because I wanted to be happy even if I couldn't be happy with a car. Not smart I know, cause now I am in the position that I cant get what I want. Which after waiting for years to get one is just about the same as not being able to afford it at all. My dad wants me to get a bucket that I can just drive around Little Rock. What he doesn't understand is that any break I have I want to take my car with me or else I'll be in the same position on my breaks and I won't be able to visit friends or go shopping or any of the things college students like to do on their breaks from a long semester. The worst thing on a break is to be talking to a friend who has free time like you but you can't hang out because neither of you has a car. I feel like I'm 14 wanting to experience the world but stuck inside by endless boundaries and obstacles. Just last night I sat in my summer dorm room all night wishing I had had more time to car shop...but not just time I had had plenty of time to car shop but since my brother has to work long hours I never actually got to see many of the cars that I found. Ugh. And now I'm back in LR where it seems that if you want a car for under 4 grand it will literally be a ball of steel after some terrible accident in which it was involved. And the same problem is evident. Only worse because it is only a matter of days or weeks until my parents kick me off the phone plan and even though I love verizon..It is too high for any upcoming professional in the making. It's more than insurance. I'm gonna look for a car and save my research money...and just maybe when school starts I will have a car.