I feel so alone in this hellhole called Arkansas. I don't have the luxury of having family or high school friends in town to just do things whenever so I am freakin trapped on campus in the dorms staring at the same four walls day in and day out. Nobody understands that because nobody else is in this situation. So my dumb self practically begs people to take pity on me and take me somewhere. Anywhere. This is the worst way to live-Alone. I hate it here. I'm ready to leave and never look back. Nothing is working out and I can't take it. It sucks to feel like your life is wasting away because you are so dependent on everyone else and everything that you want and need has to be on the backburner for the rest of the world. I can't win. And whats worse is knowing that nobody is even thinking about you, caring that you are crying alone cause you feel like your brain will slowly implode from the boredom that comes with staring at a computer or television reruns for days on end. I feel so helpless with myself. I can't live like this. I shouldn't have come back for this. My summer was amazing til now and now it's a new low that I didn't think I could reach. Sadly my best friends that are keeping me sane (although they probably don't know how vital they are) live 9hrs away and I would rather be there with them.